My weekly email to my Mission President
"This week was a lot better. I will admit being a missionary is
sometimes an emotional roller coaster. At some times I will feel
really great about my spanish and just feel really happy and then the
next moment I feel dumb with my spanish and really down. But it´s
amazing how whenever I am down Heavenly Father blesses me with
something that helps me feel better. I really am learning a ton
everyday. I thought before I came on a mission that I knew a lot but I
have realized that there is something to learn everyday, especially in
the Gospel. I am so incredibly grateful. Our zone meeting this past
week was so great. I felt the spirit strongly and I love the motto of
our mission "De los milagros." I have been trying to find milagros in
my life everyday and especially in this work. I have realized that me
being here on a mission is a milagro. The fact that I am in a whole
different country and culture, not knowing anyone beforehand, not
knowing the language, and somehow being able to teach these people the
Gospel in their language. And I am surviving. What a miracle!
I am trying to be more bold and open my mouth and just talk, even if I
don´t know how to say what i want to say. I realize that Heavenly
Father isn´t going to help me until I do my part and actually make an
La familia Idalgo came to church again and they have a baptism date at
the end of the month! I am so happy and excited. It´s cool too because
they are excited and have the desire to learn more. It´s awesome
helping people learn the Gospel and to know that it is going to bless
them so much.
It is hard not to get discouraged at times because a lot of times the
people don´t have time to talk or are not interested and then we can´t
teach much. And it´s hard when people don´t follow through with
commitments. I am going to start praying to know how I can help
investigators follow through with commitments."
Like I said to my mission president. There are definitely tons of ups
and downs of emotions in the mission. I had another breakdown this
week (It seems to be a weekly thing, but its not going to happen
anymore!). Not totally because of the language, but because I felt
alone. It´s hard sometimes cause I miss being able to actually have a
real conversation with someone and things like that. Everytime I get
down I pray because that is really one of the only things that helps
in those moments. Because I know Heavenly Father is listening. and
then he always blesses me.
On Tuesday was a festival for Dia de Bolivia at the Stake Center! It
was so fun and there were a ton of fun traditional Bolivian dances
that every ward did. It was really cool and I actually got emotional
at one point (I am turning into a woman, always crying) because It was
just so cool to me how there are so many different cultures and
traditions and even people of different cultures are a part of the
Gospel. Isn´t that cool? The Gospel is true. El Evangelio es
verdadero. The only thing that I didn´t like about the festival was
that I couldn´t dance. Seriously though, that is the only hard part
about being a missionary. Oh, and learning a new language.
Like I said to my Mission President I have been trying to find
milagros (miracles) in my life everyday because we can always find
miracles in our lives. It´s pretty cool cause it helps you see the
Lord´s hand in your life everyday.
So it is true, the people are always late here. Mom, you would die.
Time is just not really an issue to people. And I will admit, it is
pretty frustrating to me sometimes. I am learning patience.
So during one of our lessons with familia Idalgo this week we talked a
lot about El Sacerdocio (the priesthood) and I felt the spirit so
strongly. I realize I have taken the priesthood for granted. But the
priesthood is seriously amazing. It´s the POWER OF GOD on the earth
TODAY! The same power that Christ had during his time on earth. How
cool is that? I am so grateful that my Dad holds the priesthood and I
was blessed with that my whole life. I bore testimony of that in our
I am gaining weight. Seriously the people feed us so much and
sometimes I feel like I am going to die. Because we can´t deny the
food or that would be rude. We have a half hour to exercise in the
morning but I am using that to study the language. So I have the
choice to either be fat or not know the language. I am choosing to be
fat. Hna Quispe is impressed with me cause I eat everything and I
haven´t gotten sick yet. I just have a really strong stomach. Another
miracle and blessing. haha
Mom, I thought you would like to know that at one point in our
bathroom we even had pink toilet paper. haha and the other day during
one of our lessons I thought of the Richard G Squat thing and I had to
try really hard not to laugh.
Ayer con la familia Idalgo (yesterday with the Family Idalgo) we
watched the Jose Smith movie. Seriously it is so powerful! I suggest
everyone to watch it.
Anyways I am going to try and send some pictures. I love you!!! Thanks
for always thinking of me and for your support. I love my family and I
am so grateful. I love you!